They always say fall in love with your best friend – but what if you fall truly in love.
I am guilty of this countless times, I have done it as long as I can remember; it also hurts a lot differently as a lesbian or gay man – you ultimately fall in love with someone that is NOT capable of giving you the same love in return, under any circumstance. Yes, it’s fun to flirt and joke around but there are true feelings on your end that ARE in fact getting hurt. Yeah it’s great to cuddle and kiss randomly because it’s “fun” for them – at the end of the day though, you only end up hurting yourself because you know where they stand and that it’ll never be what you want it to be.
If you’ve ever had a straight best friend that you’ve loved and had to remind yourself, it’ll never be. It’s a tortuous cycle to put yourself through, you just really don’t have a choice except figure out how to put the feelings to the side (because we all know, there is no “turning off” your true feelings.)
All of my friends mean the world to me and I wouldn’t change the relationships for anything – that doesn’t stop me from wishing and dreaming that in another time, in another place… it would’ve happened.